He lets her question hang unanswered for a few moments before he lifts his head and opens his eyes again. He could pull this away from the truth easily, but he doesn't particularly want to. He's not sure if it's more self-destruction or a need to confess, but when he meets her eyes it's with an air of defiance, his jaw clenched tightly and his brow slightly furrowed.

He swallows and looks away. "I meant to die. Didn't exactly turn out as planned."