"No," Seth answers immediately, both him and Sephronia seeming suddenly defensive. He's not sure what the specific reason is he's so intensely set against it. Part of it is the reason he'd given Johnny, that Gabe hadn't liked him dealing heavier stuff, and thus would definitely disapprove of using it, and so he'd probably get angry. Another reason is the fear that Gabe would simply be disappointed, that Seth will have let him down, make him feel like he doesn't deserve the help he's been given. Maybe Gabe would even decide Seth's more trouble than he's worth and just cut him loose. Now, Seth knows that possibility is an irrational fear, but it's still hard to tamp down.
"It's not Gabe's problem," Sephronia says, for once backing him up, even if Seth would rather leave it there, with a simple no that Johnny would have to respect. "He's got enough to deal with." At least Johnny should be unable to disagree with that. That fact that Gabe might still want to help is irrelevant.
And then of course lastly, there's the possibility that Gabe will simply put an end to it regardless of consequences, deciding he knows what's best for Seth. It wouldn't be completely out of character. And sure, not being dependent on drugs would be good. But it would also probably mean that...
"Without the drugs, we wouldn't be able to use the powers. There'd be no way to stop someone from doing the same thing to us again," Sephronia says, giving voice to Seth's fear, even if he'd rather not discuss that possibility. He doesn't comment, just shoots her a look. He's just not ready to face the idea that he might once again be powerless, merely a tool for others to use, and without any real way to defend himself. It had almost broken him before. Johnny's been inside one of those dreams, he's seen what a mess Seth was in there. Seth's not sure he would survive a second round.
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"It's not Gabe's problem," Sephronia says, for once backing him up, even if Seth would rather leave it there, with a simple no that Johnny would have to respect. "He's got enough to deal with." At least Johnny should be unable to disagree with that. That fact that Gabe might still want to help is irrelevant.
And then of course lastly, there's the possibility that Gabe will simply put an end to it regardless of consequences, deciding he knows what's best for Seth. It wouldn't be completely out of character. And sure, not being dependent on drugs would be good. But it would also probably mean that...
"Without the drugs, we wouldn't be able to use the powers. There'd be no way to stop someone from doing the same thing to us again," Sephronia says, giving voice to Seth's fear, even if he'd rather not discuss that possibility. He doesn't comment, just shoots her a look. He's just not ready to face the idea that he might once again be powerless, merely a tool for others to use, and without any real way to defend himself. It had almost broken him before. Johnny's been inside one of those dreams, he's seen what a mess Seth was in there. Seth's not sure he would survive a second round.