It's weird, it's startling, it's a little off-putting, and it's - nice? to have that kind of innate feeling of yeah, so maybe he kind of gets it. Of course, it's dangerous as hell, which is maybe why it's weirdly reassuring. Johnny's not gonna push it. He knows not to. That's good.
Which means he's probably already fucked.
"Thanks," he says finally, because he honestly doesn't know what else he can say in response to that. Maybe it comes off a little gruff. Maybe it should. Fuck, why is he still here? Why is he the one who lived?
That's a useless thing to think here, now, with this person, with this supposedly new life that feels almost the same because it's dull and it's hidden in hotels and it's terrifying, and that's exactly how it should be.
"I know it's, it's weird right now." Like that covers any of it. It's an idiotic defense mechanism, like, maybe if he's vague about the monsters, the monsters can't get him. Yeah. Right fucking on. "It's just - I'm just - not the safest person. To be around."
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Which means he's probably already fucked.
"Thanks," he says finally, because he honestly doesn't know what else he can say in response to that. Maybe it comes off a little gruff. Maybe it should. Fuck, why is he still here? Why is he the one who lived?
That's a useless thing to think here, now, with this person, with this supposedly new life that feels almost the same because it's dull and it's hidden in hotels and it's terrifying, and that's exactly how it should be.
"I know it's, it's weird right now." Like that covers any of it. It's an idiotic defense mechanism, like, maybe if he's vague about the monsters, the monsters can't get him. Yeah. Right fucking on. "It's just - I'm just - not the safest person. To be around."