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Seth ([personal profile] powerdealer) wrote in [community profile] applesaucedream 2015-01-30 02:49 am (UTC)

Seth remains quiet in the face of Daniel's reassurances. He knows he can't really argue against it. But that doesn't change the way he feels. It doesn't make it all that easier. Tenable or not, it's difficult for him to envision anything different. That all his decisions won't be informed by the possibility. That it won't stop him from becoming complacent, or content, or optimistic. It might be part of the reason he can't bring himself to do anything about his feelings for Daniel. He shoulders draw up further as he chews on his lip.

"D'you know, uh," he starts, staring at the floor. "Just last week, the amount of time I've been free finally surpassed the time I spent working for the rebels..." He's counting his voluntary involvement in that as well, but that's how long they benefitted from his power. He doubts they've forgotten about him in that time.

"It just... It hasn't even been half a year since I got out." Which may seem like a long time, but he feels like he's spent a lot of it just becoming functional. Which, really, he still isn't reliably. He doesn't feel ready to give up his crutch. People spend that much time getting over a singular traumatic event. He needs to get over several months worth of traumatic events and conditioning.

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