Sam Winchester (
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applesaucedream2013-07-09 09:42 pm
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Back when he was at Stanford, Sam tried to teach himself how to lucid dream. He'd left the nightmare of hunting behind him, and he'd wanted, if it crept into his sleeping mind, to be able to say, 'No, stop, this is a dream; this is in my own head, and I can control what happens in it.' He hadn't wanted, if he was sharing a bed with Jess, to freak her out by muttering in his sleep, or waking up with a shout, or sweating all over her.
He hadn't succeeded.
Now, passed out in the shitty motel he'd booked himself a room in, Sam dreams.
He's chasing a dog through a forest that he thinks might actually be Purgatory. He's not sure why he thinks this, because he hasn't come across any monsters, but somehow it feels like it might be, something heavy and oppressive and grey weighing on him, like if he looked up he'd find no sun at all in the sky, but only an endless roof. He thinks, too, that the dog is Riot, that maybe somehow he'd escaped from Kermit and that's why it's so important that Sam find him, that he return him to Amelia. But if he's in Purgatory-- dogs don't have souls, do they? And even if they did, they wouldn't end up in Purgatory, so what--? Maybe not Riot, then. Ahead of him, the quick patter of paws and the whuffle of doggy panting change to a heavier pounding, a rolling snarl of breath, and Sam realises with a cold flush that it isn't Riot at all.
It's a hellhound. There's no heavy weight of the demon knife in his pocket, but Sam keeps running anyway; he has to catch it, he does; he doesn't know why, but in the dream, that's of little importance in the face of the knowledge that he has to, he has to.
He hadn't succeeded.
Now, passed out in the shitty motel he'd booked himself a room in, Sam dreams.
He's chasing a dog through a forest that he thinks might actually be Purgatory. He's not sure why he thinks this, because he hasn't come across any monsters, but somehow it feels like it might be, something heavy and oppressive and grey weighing on him, like if he looked up he'd find no sun at all in the sky, but only an endless roof. He thinks, too, that the dog is Riot, that maybe somehow he'd escaped from Kermit and that's why it's so important that Sam find him, that he return him to Amelia. But if he's in Purgatory-- dogs don't have souls, do they? And even if they did, they wouldn't end up in Purgatory, so what--? Maybe not Riot, then. Ahead of him, the quick patter of paws and the whuffle of doggy panting change to a heavier pounding, a rolling snarl of breath, and Sam realises with a cold flush that it isn't Riot at all.
It's a hellhound. There's no heavy weight of the demon knife in his pocket, but Sam keeps running anyway; he has to catch it, he does; he doesn't know why, but in the dream, that's of little importance in the face of the knowledge that he has to, he has to.

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Only, the closer he gets, the detail and outward tarnish show through and something else feels...off. Beyond the amazing feeling of actually feeling a human soul again, it's also familiar somehow.
It's takes until he's standing directly in the dream with Sam Winchester running towards him to realize just why the soul feels so familiar.
"Oh, fuck. Really?"
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'Gabriel? The fuck--?'
But he can't stop the chase just because he's run into an angel who's supposed to be dead, and he shakes his head, pointing off in the direction the hound had run.
'Good,' he rasps curtly. 'There's a-- a hellhound, and I don't have my knife. You can come with me, and kill it, and then you can explain how the hell you're alive. Come on.'
He jerks his head at Gabriel and strides on; he can either follow Sam or stop him.
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A waitress in a low-cut top sidles up, settles two beers on their table, and leaves to go back to the bar. For now, it seems like they're the only people in the joint. Robert Johnson whines out about hellhounds from the jukebox in the corner as Gabe raises an eyebrow and pushes one of the beers across the table.
"It's a dream, genius."
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Putting the glass down, he eyes Gabriel dubiously. 'My dreams aren't usually quite so self-aware. And why the hell would I be dreaming about you?'
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"Your dreams are suddenly bearable because I'm really here." For a second, he spreads his hands out presentation style around his face. "Surprise! Not dead anymore." Yeah, he's going with anymore because he'd really rather Sam keep on thinking he was a martyr for the cause. It's better for his image. His hands drop back to the table and his smile turns more wry than amused. "Don't start a parade with your enthusiasm or anything."
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'You know, if you wanted to guilt me out about angels, you could've picked another one. Seriously.' This he mutters to the ceiling, as if his own brain were living up there to pick up on his internal critiques of his own dreams. Turning back to Gabriel, he levels an unimpressed look at him. The obnoxious flirting is neither cute nor original, and Sam is the wrong Winchester brother to rise to that particular bait.
'Yeah, well, forgive me if I'm not exactly thrilled; at least with a hellhound, I know what it's going to do to me if it gets the chance.'
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Gabriel hasn't missed the fact that Sam doesn't exactly believe he's here yet, but that's not really important to convince him of at the moment. He's more interested in information. "Have reasons for feeling guilty about angels? What's Castiel up to these days?"
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What happened to the angels isn't his fault, or Dean's, and he doesn't actually feel guilty about it; that's all on Metatron, and poor stupid Castiel for being hopeful enough to believe his lies. He does, however, feel hugely the weight of responsibility for being stuck here, even though he knows, he knows that there's nothing he can do about it. But he's aware all the time that back in his own world, Dean will be freaking out, Kevin will be freaking out, and there is shit that needs to be done. Crowley will need to be dealt with, whatever he is now after Sam's aborted ritual, and all the angels now on Earth (and there had looked like thousands of them), and taking down Metatron-- and Sam can't help any of it.
He takes another long drink of his beer and meets Gabriel's eyes, scowling.
'So no, I don't know what Castiel's up to. Dead or fallen, depending on how lucky he is.'
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"All the angels." He's not really getting how that is even possible. "Are you sure you're not still stuck in fantasy land there?" He huffs out a laugh that sounds nervous and worried more than anything even approaching amused. "What'd they do, form an orderly queue and start hopping off clouds? Sorry, but it doesn't really work that way."
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He breaks off. He hadn't heard them with his ears so much as whatever weird sense heightened by the trials had made him resonate with angelic matter, or whatever the fuck, but somehow, he had heard screaming. And even though this is just a dream, he's not sharing that with Gabriel.
'You honestly telling me you managed to miss that memo?'
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He takes a sip of his beer, sets it down with a clunk onto the tabletop, and reaches into Sam's mind. And there it is. All true. A demon named Crowley. Castiel. Dean. Angels falling like meteors to the Earth. Screaming.
He leans back into the booth as he pulls away from Sam's mind, looking visibly shaken. For a fraction of a second, the scene around them blurs. The lights flicker off, the music stops. When they turn back on, everything seems normal again. The waitress is washing glasses behind the bar, their drinks are full, and there's a rough acoustic guitar sound creaking out of the jukebox.
"Yeah," He smirks and picks up his beer, then sets it back down without taking a sip. "guess I missed the memo. Being dead and then in another universe tends to mix up the mail. I don't get any of my magazines."
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'Stay out of my head, dude!'
Sam stares, unnerved. He's aware that angels can read minds, and knows, indeed, that Castiel has read his mind in the past, but Sam can't recall ever being able to feel it like that. It hadn't been a physical sensation, more like the tugging he'd felt somewhere internally when he'd had to strain hard to exorcise a demon, something somehow purely mental. He doesn't know what Gabriel just did, but he doesn't like the recollection of that sensation. That and the fact that he's got a whole bunch of shit going on in his head right now that he really doesn't need Gabriel knowing.
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He feels suddenly at a loose end, but he can still ask questions. To say he's been out of the loop lately would be an understatement. Until he ties up all the loose ends he can here, he's not going to be satisfied. "Is this because of the war? Between Heaven and Hell. They were using souls as fuel." And that's really all the intel he's got. For someone as powerful as Gabriel, suddenly wanting information and not being able to get it is frustrating in the extreme.
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'When isn't it?' Sam is more than a little bitter about the overinvolvement of Heaven and Hell in his life. That doesn't really even begin to cover it though, not really, and he sighs gustily, shoving a hand through his hair.
'You want-- you've missed out on everything since Lucifer iced you?' No sugarcoating that. He wiggles a few tired fingers at his beer. 'Mojo this into something stronger and I'll... try to summarise.'
It occurs to him absently that this might actually be his brain's way of allowing him to sort through everything, an excuse to lay it all out in a way that makes some sort of sense.
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Sam's request is met with a snort. He doesn't bother with having the waitress come over. Instead of beer, they've now both got whiskey on the rocks. Even if it's imaginary at the moment, he takes a sip himself. Call it steeling his resolve. He knows that he's not going to want to hear any of what Sam has to relate, but he needs to hear it.
"Go for it."
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Now, where the hell to even start? He exhales heavily, and decides that there's no point pulling punches, not when Gabriel's his audience. 'We stopped the Apocalypse. Uh, obviously. I said yes to Lucifer, and then threw myself down into the Pit; Michael tried to grab me-- us, whatever, and he fell in too. Oh, and, he was wearing our half-brother, Adam. The angels brought him back to life when Dean wouldn't say yes. Then Castiel... brought me back.'
He has no desire to talk about the year and a half he spent without a soul, nor, he thinks, is it especially relevant in this case, so yeah, that's just gonna go unmentioned.
'But, uh, even with Michael and Lucifer gone, Raphael still wanted the Apocalypse to happen. Fate or destiny or whatever. So there was a... civil war in Heaven, with Raphael and the angels who wanted to restart the Apocalypse, and Cas leading the other side. But he was-- losing. And we were idiots and wouldn't listen to him. So he ended up making a deal with Crowley. They opened Purgatory, and Cas-- drank in all the souls there, for their power. Killed Raphael, and then... kinda went crazy. He declared himself God, and I guess he ended up... killing a whole lot of others up in Heaven.'
'But then-- it wasn't just the souls in Purgatory he had inside him, it was the Leviathan. And they... burned him out of his vessel or-- the vessel just couldn't hold up with all of that in there. So they got loose and there was a whole bunch of other shit with them on Earth, but that's not really--'
Sam sighs, and takes another gulp of his whiskey. Jesus, it's hard to explain all this in any way that makes sense.
'So, anyway. Cas comes back to life later and he-- well. The Leviathan thing ends with him and Dean getting sucked into Purgatory. Heaven's dealing with the aftermath of civil war and-- Cas, and on Earth, we've found a demon tablet with instructions on how to close the Gates of Hell, and a prophet, Kevin, who can read it, so that's, y'know, that's our focus. Or-- ok, so Dean gets himself out of Purgatory, and then we start working on the tablet. First trial, kill a hellhound, second, pull an innocent soul out of Hell, third--'
He pauses, swallowing down the bitter despair that's seemed to be living just under his skin for the past however many weeks. 'Third-- cure a demon.'
'But while we're doing that, Castiel gets pulled out of Purgatory by an angel called Naomi, who's, I guess, head of their secret service, or whatever. She had a whole Clockwork Orange thing going on with Cas, mind-control to try and get a hold of the tablet. And Cas broke free of it, but-- we ran into Metatron, while we were looking for information about the trials. Hiding out in an old reservation. And he had this story about an-- angel tablet, I guess, I don't know all of it, but. He tricked Cas into thinking it was the best way to fix what he'd done in Heaven.'
'But it wasn't trials, it was a spell, and it-- exiled all the angels. And the-- I couldn't finish the trials; I was going to, I was just, I had Crowley, and it was working, the cure, but--' Sam trails off, dropping his head for a moment, and then fortifies himself with more whiskey. 'Dean stopped me. I'd have died, if I'd finished them. So... now Hell is still open, and the entire population of Heaven is stuck on Earth.'
Laid all out like that, honestly, it almost seems more pointless and confusing than it had been when he'd just been living it day-to-day, and he lifts his head to meet Gabriel's eyes. He tries hard for some measure of wry cynicism with which to inject his tone, but it mostly just comes out sounding tired.
'So. That's what you've missed.'
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His focus got fuzzy somewhere between Castiel killed Raphael and civil war and so far it isn't showing any signs of clearing enough to let him make sense of any of this. He stands with his hands on the bar, his eyes closed, desperately wanting all of this to not be real, even though he can feel the truth of it. The solidity of Sam's familiar soul behind him is an aching connection to that truth.
"How could you be so fucking stupid? Had so much good experience with angels that you just trust the Metatron with every life in heaven? Castiel should have known not to trust that sniveling little shit." His shoulders start shaking and, frustrated at his own reaction to the news, he pushes himself away from the bar and faces Sam. "Fuck, Sam. You should have known! Haven't you learned anything?"
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He should have been, though, shouldn't he? This is inside his head, after all, and what is Sam if not a mess of fucked-up, still raw from his confession in the church before he began the third trial, still aching from nearly having finished and not managing, again. Of course Gabriel would blame him.
It makes him furious. Really, suddenly angry like he hasn't felt since he was recovering from Ruby and the demon blood, and he shoves himself out of his seat. The bar around them... doesn't seem to be a bar anymore, or at least not entirely a bar; the crucifix is there on the wall, life-sized with only the hands and feet left nailed to the cross, the damp smell of rotting wood and old incense and his own blood.
'Fuck you!' he spits, facing off to Gabriel. He doesn't loom, though, despite the height and bulk he has over the angel's vessel; his shoulders are faintly hunched, his jaw tight, and he breathes hard through his nose as he glares. 'I was busy trying to close the goddamn Gates of Hell, don't you dare blame me. You think we can control what Castiel does? You-- we've fucked up a lot, and so has he, but this-- is on Metatron; you blame him if you want someone to shout at!'
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"I can blame whoever I want to blame, Sammy." He lifts a hand and pushes, his palm flat against Sam's chest for just a moment, though it should be enough to knock Sam on his ass.
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Something has gone very wrong. With swift, sure movements born of years of practice, she strings her longbow. It was a well-timed move; no sooner has she finished when she hears the sound of someone - or something - crashing toward her. It's not an animal, whatever it is, and she grabs an arrow and sets it to the string. The whatever-it-is draws closer, and after a moment's hesitation, Daine draws the arrow back to her ear. Best not to take chances. Aiming in the direction the noise is coming from, she waits.
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He shouldn't be surprised when he crashes through a tangle of creepers to find himself staring down the business end of a drawn longbow. Breaking from his run in a quick motion, he crouches and snatches up the nearest rock he can find, straightening tensely with it held in his hand ready to throw; kind of a pathetic weapon, but the only thing to hand.
Only then does he take a good look at the person wielding the bow. It's a woman-- a girl, really, dressed in the kind of thing he'd seen on Charlie's LARPing pals, but that bow-- he has no doubt that's the real thing. No padded polystyrene arrows here. As far as the clothes, well, monsters have been dying and going to Purgatory for who knows how long.
'What are you?' he demands hoarsely, and then, still breathless but slightly more diplomatic, 'I'm not here to-- to do any monster slaying, you can put the bow down.'
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The first words out of his mouth aren't very encouraging, and she narrows her eyes at him. What does he mean by 'what'? She looks human, and if he was mage enough to know about her magic, he'd be mage enough to not need to ask about it. And... monster slaying?
"I'm not a monster," she replies, baffled and, to be honest, more than a little bit offended. She's been called plenty of names before, but not by folk who didn't at least know what she was capable of. Being dubbed a monster by a stranger right out of the gate is a bit much. And no, she's not lowering her bow. "Who are you?"
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His own eyes narrow, and he turns his head a little, trying to listen to the pound of the hellhound's paws, but there's nothing; even this brief delay and he's lost him, damn. Trying to tear off after it right away won't find it again. So he introduces himself.
'Sam Winchester,' he says, in a way that's half wary, half a challenge. It's not just the family name that has a reputation among things that go bump in the night; Sam knows well enough to know that Hell's one-time plans for him mean that there are a hell of a lot of dark things that know his name very particularly.
But the girl gives no sign of recognition, and some of the suspicion melts out of his expression. 'What are you doing here, if you're not a monster?'
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"I don't know," she says tersely, giving her surroundings an uncertain frown. "The forest was normal a few moments ago, and then it changed to this." A decidedly abnormal forest, empty of wildlife so far as she can tell. She does not approve.
A niggling sense of deja vu resolves itself into the realization that this has happened before - starting out in one forest and ending up in another - and she sighs. "Oh. The rift, I'd guess."
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'It's Purgatory.' And then he pauses, brows knotting somewhat uneasily. 'At least I... think it is. Are you--' he's about to ask whether she's a hunter, inclining his head at the bow in her hand, when he draws up short. 'Sorry, I don't know your name either.'
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"I'm Daine," she says, because at least that's one question she can answer. "But I don't see how this can be Purgatory. I'm not dead." She's pretty sure, anyway; she'd like to think if she died in New York, the rift would have the decency to let her soul go home, at least.
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Which will serve as an explanation as to his misapprehension upon first seeing her. Now he completes the nod towards her bow, taking her in with an assessing little up and down flick of his gaze. 'You a hunter, Daine?'
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His question hits a bit closer to home than he means it to, and she stiffens warily. He can't know about her da, though; that's... no. "Not anymore," she says flatly, even though she suspects he's not talking about animals. Well, she's not in the habit of hunting immortals, either.
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He nods equitably, his expression somewhere between resignation and abashment. 'Only... there's a hellhound I was chasing before I ran into you. That bow looks like it'd come in all sorts of useful. And it's, uh,' he adds, 'probably best to stick together around here.'
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She puts the arrow away, though she keeps her bow strung. "I'm not shooting anything that doesn't attack me, first." And she can't help glancing at the rock Sam's still holding. If he's going to chuck it at her, now would be the time, though she doubts he will. Besides, if he's thinking to take her bow, he'll find it's not the only weapon she has at her disposal.
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Her blasé attitude towards the hellhound, however, has him snorting. 'Trust me, it'll attack; that's what they do.' He considers, since she knows about the rift, the odds of her being from a different universe seem high, so he expounds. 'You know what demons are? Hell? They have that in your universe? Hellhounds, they're like the-- they retrieve souls. Human souls. They rip people apart, and devour their flesh, and drag their souls down to the Pit to be tortured for-- eternity.'
He stops abruptly, breathing hard again. He... hadn't actually meant to get quite that vehement, but it had happened before he'd entirely noticed. Pressing his lips hard together, he ducks his head briefly, and then lifts it to shake his hair out of his eyes. 'I could use your help. Please. And then we can work out how to get out of here.'
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Still, it's obvious that he feels strongly about this. Has he seen these hellhounds in action? Well, even if he has, she hasn't - and she'll judge their nastiness for herself, thanks ever so.
"We don't have demons in my realm - or hell. Folk go to the Black God's realm when they die." Her tone is gentler than it was a moment ago, as she's unconsciously shifted into the tone she'd use to soothe one of the People when they get fretful. Plus, she feels a bit sorry for him, or for any folk from realms with hells and purgatories.
But feeling sorry for him isn't reason enough to go hunting down some hellhound on nothing but his say-so. "If hellhounds are such monsters, then they belong here, surely? We don't. I'd rather focus on getting us out. If it's that determined to attack, then it'll find us."
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There's also the uneasy sense that he needs to find the hellhound, that it's important, really, really important. It's uneasy because he can't think why, he just knows it, down to his marrow.
So he nods shortly. Fine, whatever. He saw how she handled that bow; he very much doubts, when they do come across the hellhound, she'll just stand back. 'Come on, then. Can't say I know how to get out, though. There should be a portal somewhere; Purgatory doesn't much like humans running around in it, far as I understand, but hell if I know where it is.'
With no better lead to go on, then, he sets off in the direction he was going before, tromping doggedly onwards and assuming that Daine will follow.
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Of course, she's not entirely human... but she can't think of a way to ask if that might be a problem without telling him about her da, which she doesn't much care to do. For all she knows, anyone who isn't one hundred percent human counts as a monster in Sam's book, and she'd prefer to get through this without having any rocks chucked her way.
Trotting to catch up with him, she asks, "What do these hellhounds look like?" She wants to have some idea of what to watch for.
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Briefly, he looks back at Daine as she jogs up to join him. 'They're invisible; you can only see them if they've been sent after you in particular, or through glass scorched by Holy Fire.' Inconvenient, he knows. 'They're big, though, so usually you can hear them; on ground like this, could probably track their prints too.'
Sam's no woodsman, but the mulchy forest floor looks soft enough that a hellhound would leave visible tracks. Frowning in thought, he jerks his head at Daine. 'Your arrows; what're the heads made of?'
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She doesn't comment on the tracking, because yes, it'd be fair easy for her on ground like this. The portal is still her focus, though, and she doesn't want to get roped in to trying to track down the hellhound if it's heading away from them.
"Steel," she replies, wondering if that's going to be a problem. Her arrows have always done well enough for the immortals back home, but different realms have different rules. Maybe hellhounds are like werebears, with only silver really harming them.
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'Mmm,' he hums, thoughtful and disappointed. 'You don't have anything iron on you-- or salt? I--' he's about to explain about Ruby's knife, the magic knife that can kill just about anything supernatural excepting angels, but he shakes his head. What's the point? 'I wasn't exactly prepared, when I got dumped here.'
He's not actually sure how he ended up here, but his train of thought seems to skid off that question as being unimportant, so it doesn't occur to him to wonder. No knife, but his gun is pressing warmly against the small of his back as he walks, and he draws another deep breath through his nose.
'I've got rock-salt rounds; that'll hurt it, but they won't kill it.'
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Besides, she's not so sure it'll matter what her arrows are made of if she's putting them into a creature's eye. "My arrows have always done well enough for the immortals back home," she says with a little shrug. "Do they really have to be iron?"
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'Hey, boy,' he murmurs, a hesitant smile twitching around the corner of his mouth, and he drops to his knees in the mulch, greeting the golden retriever and its lolling tongue with two hands curling behind his ears to scratch in the good place. Sam looks around warily; the paranoid, oppressive feel of the place hasn't lifted. 'What're you doing here?'
It's as he looks that he notices the woman. She's small and slight, looking more like she ought to be strolling through a park on a summer's day than wandering around a-forest-he's-pretty-sure-is-Purgatory, but small and slight and wearing a dress is no indicator that she's harmless. In a movement as smooth as he can make it, Sam hitches Bones closer, gathering the dog in towards his body. The impulse to shield him is probably a stupid one; the dog can run faster than he can, after all, but that doesn't stop him feeling it. He doesn't say anything, just crouches where he is with his old dog and watches.
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It's probably polite to introduce herself before she goes and changes anything, so she starts towards him, seemingly unimpeded by the bramble and dead wood sticking out everywhere. Once she's close enough, she gives him a small, pleasant smile. "Hello... Sam, is it?" Just because she keeps being told not to poke around in people's minds without permission doesn't mean she's ever actually going to stop doing it.
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His attention is neatly hijacked from any peculiarities in her movement when she speaks, and he stands, holding Bones close to him on the leash that is suddenly in his hand. As exhausted and gaunt as he must look, he still pulls his shoulders back and clenches his jaw; Sam's a good foot and a half taller than this woman, he will damn well loom if he can do nothing else.
'How do you know my name?'
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"I am called the TARDIS. I noticed you were having a rather exhausting nightmare and thought I might offer my help." Also she was getting a bit bored just observing the sleeping minds. Sometimes it's nice to interact with whatever they come up with, especially since the telepathic current makes it fairly easy for her to connect with them despite how small they are. But she's mostly here to help, and as proof of her good intentions there is now soothing birdsong in the air and the occasional rustling sound of perfectly ordinary woodland creatures between the trees.