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Seth ([personal profile] powerdealer) wrote in [community profile] applesaucedream2014-10-18 04:23 am

[closed] When all turns out to be unjust, then I'll turn back and help you out

Seth is having a familiar dream. He's sitting in an underground interrogation room, cuffed hands resting on the cold metal table. Head bowed, eyes fixed on the table. Waiting. He's alone, but who knows who's on the other side of a one-way mirror next to him.

Elsewhere, as Daniel enters the dream, Seth casts him as someone being shown around the rebel base, perhaps as some sort of inspector, or someone who's just gotten their security clearance upped. The man showing him around is some sort of doctor, or a supervisor, probably both.

"Our next prisoner, J-19, has been working with us for three and a half months now. Doing good work, mostly compliant these days, though he can get a bit unruly sometimes," the man says, leading the way down one of the many underground corridors.


[Warning: ...I don't even know what all to warn for. Imprisonment, abuse, torture, temporary paralysis, NPC death, guns, a lot of emotions, sensory overload, suicide mentions... It's heavy.]
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[personal profile] peacefulexplorer 2014-10-18 05:09 am (UTC)(link)
Daniel follows his area supervisor through the subterranean base with restrained interest as he tries not to put every moral doubt on display all at once. He enters the room behind the false mirror, the whole thing as uncompromisingly shadowed as the rest of the base, the walls smooth and bare and lifeless. Oddly enough, the room on the other side of the glass seems to be the brightest he's seen in the base so far, so Daniel moves closer for a better look. The fluorescent light lends a harsh silver cast to its sole occupant. Seated. Handcuffed. Waiting in isolation.

Then Daniel's mouth parts slightly in muted alarm as he realizes that he recognizes him, and an iciness seeps into the base of his neck that has nothing to do with room temperature.

Seth looks terrible under the glare of cold light, though Daniel can't see his face. He's looking at the table and it'd be useless even if he did happen to glance up, because of course he'd see the mirror and not those on the other side.

With considerable effort, he forces his attention back to the supervisor, who has just made an unfortunate comment about the sort of "work" Seth's been doing for them.

"Unruly how, exactly?" Daniel asks in response, the veneer of careful neutrality doing just enough to mask the moral outrage boiling beneath. That's Seth in there. What have they been doing to him?
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[personal profile] peacefulexplorer 2014-10-18 06:06 am (UTC)(link)
Oh god. After the long period where Seth demonstrates an unsettling lack of movement he finally shifts a little, if only to lift his head and look at the mirror. But the tiny movement allows Daniel to see just how - how bad it is. The hardline shadows thrown by the overhead light only work to illuminate how gaunt and pale and malnourished he is, highlighting the shaded crescents printed beneath his eyes.

Daniel's jaw clenches.

He can't express what's going through his head right now.

The only way he can help Seth is by watching. And waiting. And learning.

And it tears him apart that he can't do anything about it. Not now. Not yet.

And of course the supervisor observes nothing, suspects nothing, it is all perfectly structured and contained and measured in sectioned-off graying walls and they have Perfect Control Over The Situation because Seth is not a person here, he is a number and a partitioned room and a commodity that has currently been designated as "uncooperative."

Daniel thinks he might be sick.

"And how long did you say he's been here? Over three months?" He works to keep his voice level, patient, calm. Three months. Over three months. It's horrifying, honestly. He can't imagine Seth succumbing to the mentality that follows that length of time in prison, how the first initial days and weeks are full of desperate opposition and then the first month establishes a pattern, and by the third month it's just confirmation that is is simply how the rest of your life is going be like. He can't see Seth being beaten down that way.

But there are a lot of things he didn't think he could imagine Seth being, an utterly helpless prisoner among them.

"How has he contributed in the long run?" Daniel asks, hating himself for going along with this, hating that he can't do anything about it now, hating himself for knowing the sorts of questions he should ask. He wishes he could signal Seth that he's here, he's a friend, he's going to get him out but it's not feasible. Not yet.
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[personal profile] peacefulexplorer 2014-10-18 07:09 am (UTC)(link)
The pitted nausea only intensifies with the explanation, and then Daniel's stomach drops out entirely when it becomes clear that he's about to see a demonstration.

He hisses out between his teeth, shoulders tensed, when the woman enters, but not so much due to her appearance (startling as someone who appears to be literally on fire is) than to Seth's. Everything about his body language, the unconscious shrinking from the target, the flinching, the hesitation, telegraphs exactly how obviously, painfully, utterly he does not want to be doing this. And Daniel can see exactly what's about to happen before it does, because Seth apologizes as he takes her hand.

He hates having to do this.

Daniel hates having to watch him do this.

There it is, the familiar flaring blaze of Seth transferring a power, and then the woman isn't on fire anymore and she's led roughly away. Daniel's sympathy extends to her as well - to have that done to someone so forcibly cannot be in any way pleasant - but Seth's reaction to having carried out the unspoken command is what demands his attention the most. He's trembling so hard Daniel can see it from through the pane of glass, and his head drops in what could be an indication of exhaustion, despair, self-hatred, anything.

Or possibly weary acceptance.

Because he's used to it.

God, how many times has he had to do this, unwilling and resisting and refusing to be used for that purpose, and what did they have to do to browbeat him into that unquestioned, automatic submission?

It takes every ounce of self-control Daniel has to not take action over this right now and definitively end all of it. He remembers that his entire body is still too taut and braced against the horror of the scene that has just played out in front of him, and he makes an active effort to externally relax.

"Interesting," he remarks flatly. "And useful, I'll give you that. But I feel I have to ask - is all this," at which point he jerks his chin in a muted gesture that manages to encompass the room, the guards, the brutality of the act, the man chained in solitude, and all of it, "strictly necessary? I mean to say, have you tried negotiating for his help?" He doesn't voice the silent addition of instead of taking it, but the meaning is clear in the weight of his words. It takes a herculean effort for Daniel to keep his tone civil and casual like that of the supervisor's, like they've embarked on an engaging discussion on weather patterns.
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[personal profile] peacefulexplorer 2014-10-18 08:14 am (UTC)(link)
He glances over at the supervisor sharply as he relays the truncated incident report. That's too little information; whatever it is about the ominous-sounding restricted area and assault, Seth's subsequent treatment likely has more to do with the details. He's been downgraded from collaborator to technicality over some vague event that Daniel has only one-sided context for.

There's movement in the other room; Seth stands and Daniel looks back over, grimacing as he takes note of how he moves, withdrawn and quiet in his immediate acquiescence to the guard's clear orders. Seeing him so subdued runs in disturbing contrast to the confident guy who bought Daniel drinks and happily went out of his way to show him around Manhattan. The man who slinks out of his cell now, recoiling from touch and compliant in service of his captors, is so contradictory to Daniel's first impressions of Seth that it actually makes his jaw ache.

He wonders fleetingly how much of the Seth he knows is a pretense to wall all of this away, and how much of who he was before this still exists.

Daniel watches him leave, standing rigid and hoping that none of it shows.

"What did he do?" he asks as the door clangs shut behind him. "Do you know the specifics of, er, J-19's incident?"

And he's been assigned a number. They don't even pretend that this is in any way humane, not that that makes it any better. They might be self-aware in their active dehumanization of Seth and whoever else they have kept in here, but that doesn't excuse them for implementing it.

God, he really fucking hates it in here.
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[personal profile] peacefulexplorer 2014-10-18 09:30 am (UTC)(link)
Daniel gets as far as the health and behavior records before his careful mask of neutrality cracks, noticeably, as he blanches and swallows hard in an effort to contain it. Going through the extra information on Seth's background feels invasive. Daniel wishes to god he hadn't obtained it this way, intruding and reading those secrets laid bare without consent.

He reaches the end of the form and has to take a surreptitious, steadying breath.

God.

He doesn't know what to do with any of this. He just wishes - god, he wishes he could unlearn all of it; he's just trespassed on something incredibly private, more or less tripped and fell into Seth's personal backyard cemetery of all the things he probably never wanted Daniel to know, least of all like this.

With meticulous care, he hands the sheet back to the supervisor. Some of the words, most prominently the ones delineating Seth as suicidal and self-destructive and a drug dealer, stick fast behind his eyelids as he shuts his eyes, rubs a thumb against the bridge of his nose, and works to regain his composure.

They can call it what they like: forced cooperation, enhanced interrogation, pressured collaborative efforts, whatever deceptive lexicon of euphemisms they choose. It's torture, and Seth's had to endure it for months without even the basic right to his own name.

Daniel swallows again, working against the reverse gravitational weight of the knot that's somehow formed in his esophagus.

"What are you going to do with him?" he asks quietly, desperately trying not to let any of that tamped down emotion leak through. "You're not going to keep him here indefinitely." The question mark hovers just past the range of the statement, low-pitched with disbelief.
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[personal profile] peacefulexplorer 2014-10-18 09:59 am (UTC)(link)
"I think that might be a good idea," Daniel replies slowly, remaining ever circumspect. "Perhaps there's a chance I could," he pauses to wet his lips, working out the best way to phrase it, "discuss some of his options. Possibly find a way to make his...correspondence with you less, ah, forceful."

Daniel isn't typically one to speak so delicately about something like this, but fortunately circumlocution is one of his finer areas. And, more importantly, if it'll allow him a window to communicate with Seth, it's worth it. He doesn't think he can physically stand to keep watching this.
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[personal profile] peacefulexplorer 2014-10-18 04:32 pm (UTC)(link)
He has to suppress yet another shudder as they move deeper into the facility, taking stock of the steady increase of security with a sinking heart. He'd been nursing the fragile hope that he could try to get Seth out now but it's not looking favorable.

Of course, that's no guarantee that Daniel won't try regardless.

He enters the cell after only a minute of hesitation. The interior of this place is, if possible, even unfriendlier than that of the interrogation area. Somehow the minimal effort they applied to make it more personal simply backfired; the stack of books doubtless meant to serve as his sole form of entertainment are just a perverse reminder of how little power Seth has here. It's all engineered submission.

Daniel sucks in a tight breath as the weighted door slams shut behind him - for maximal security purposes he guesses, but it still triggers a prickle of unease. Whether that's for Seth's sake or his own is unclear. He sucks in a preparative breath, the air chilled and painful in his lungs, takes in the spartan accommodations in one flick of his eyes, and jabs his hands into his pockets in a pointless attempt to warm them.

"Hi," he says unnecessarily, and it strikes him that there's a very real possibility that this room is being monitored. Whatever he says to Seth, it has to be discreet. Daniel is not excellent at discreet.

"J-19," he tries again, hating that he has to say it, working to keep his tone light and conversational. As far as anyone here knows, they don't know each other and Daniel should continue acting as such. "Your file said your name is 'Seth'. Can I call you Seth?"

Which is a perfectly normal thing to ask. Familiarizing oneself with an individual in an interrogative situation is a perfectly natural tactic. It creates an emotional bond to make negotiations easier. The people here should know that.
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[personal profile] peacefulexplorer 2014-10-18 10:09 pm (UTC)(link)
He looks even worse up close. Pale and fragile from months of rough treatment, looking at Daniel guardedly, but he sees the flicker of recognition just beneath. The betrayal.

Daniel forces himself to continue meeting Seth's eyes even if they're hollow and sunken and dismal, straining to communicate I'm here to help without words. He thinks he sees the barest flicker of hope cross Seth's expression but it fades before he can be sure.

He's walking on very, very thin ice. He doesn't know how to tell him and be subtle about it.

"I regret your situation." God, it sounds so flat and stony and horrible when he has to put it that way, lifeless and without admitting responsibility. "And I regret the circumstances that placed you in it." Indirectly blaming Seth for something beyond his control, how nice and considerate of him, but he can't arouse suspicion and he can't make himself obvious.

No, god no he can't do this. Not if Seth still has a modicum of hope that he can escape.

"I think it would be beneficial," he continues, the words have to be calculated and patient and without inflection and he hates it, "if we worked to change it."

All the while Daniel keeps looking at him, facing away from the door and hoping no one but Seth can see his expression, how much he is trying to non-verbally convey that he is going to get him out of here. He is going to at the very least try.
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[personal profile] peacefulexplorer 2014-10-18 11:00 pm (UTC)(link)
He has to bite back the automatic apology because Seth just radiates weary, practiced hostility, either not picking up on the signals Daniel's desperately trying to send or not caring enough to interpret them. He's not sure which is worse.

No, yes he is.

The latter. Definitely.

I'm sorry, he wants to mouth wordlessly but there's no way to know if anyone will see. He hates this. He loathes this.

Seth's offer of the hand and the caustic remark that follows is somehow worse than anything Daniel had to watch him endure in the other room. This is - this is intentional. This is aware.

How does he alert Seth to any of it? How does he - no, don't turn to look over one shoulder and check if anyone's watching because that's the surest way to raise suspicions and doom them both. He can't act on any of the instincts for compassion, understanding, whatever else he'd ordinarily utilize here. He can't afford to be anything but distant.

"It might change sooner than you think," he says again, and shit that could just as easily be taken as a subtle threat. No, no no no no that's not what he means. "It could be beneficial." No, god that sounds even worse, like he's alluding to some warped form of bribery for comfort or something.

"I can help you." But in context of what he's just said it still sounds like a warning. No, fuck, Daniel's just not very good at this at all, is he?
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[personal profile] peacefulexplorer 2014-10-19 12:41 am (UTC)(link)
Definitely the wrong thing to say. Daniel doesn't mean to flinch when Seth rises but he does, a horrible reflexive motion mirroring the other man's thoroughly unfriendly disposition. It doesn't help that Seth won't even look at him, just prowls the room while violently discharging his pent-up aggression at the only person present to listen.

It's also rapidly becoming more obvious that however ragged a condition Seth might be in physically, it's probably nothing like the graveyard his mental state must be by now. There's anxiety, animosity, barely contained frustration in each movement, and it's all aimed directly at Daniel.

Daniel, who wants to help but has no idea how, who can only stand there with restless hands and useless sympathy, stripped of his words and his compassion and his fucking pointless understanding, the only weapons he can wield with any accuracy.

"Consider that this might not be a conventional offer," he says, a little too quickly and tersely and desperately and trying not to let any of it leak through.

This is tortuous to watch. And Daniel is so close to just saying fuck it to all of it and -

He can't.
Edited 2014-10-19 00:49 (UTC)
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[personal profile] peacefulexplorer 2014-10-19 01:28 am (UTC)(link)
Seeing him actually lash out is even worse than the bottled-down rage from before, but then Seth draws himself into the corner and his expression opens and he looks up at the camera and -

Oh.

Oh.

Daniel tracks the line of Seth's gaze partway but doesn't dare look back at it. He's trusting Seth's reasoning and knowledge of the place here, so he moves toward him with all the righteous authority and purpose of someone about to engage in forcefully corrective behavior. He drops into a slow crouch in front of him, lifting his eyes to stare back at Seth in bare and skittish relief but he's not sure he can vocalize just now. His breaths are shallow, heart thudding in the shock of realization.

His lungs don't feel muzzled in cotton any longer and the room temperature isn't as oppressively glacial and he can actually breathe without the tearing in his throat because he knows now, he's done it, he's gotten through, Seth knows and none of what he said before matters, none of it.

"I'm sorry." Daniel mouths it silently, as diminished and surreptitious as he can. That doesn't even begin to cover what he needs to communicate to Seth right now and it's not even a suitable starting point, but - fuck, it's something. And it's not the arctic distance and detachment he's been forced to display so far. At least.
Edited 2014-10-19 01:40 (UTC)
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[personal profile] peacefulexplorer 2014-10-19 02:20 am (UTC)(link)
It's almost worse seeing him now, with none of the empty defiance or hostility, just Seth and his tremoring, palpable terror and anxiety and panic. There's no reservation here, no barriers or avoidance or fronts for anyone's benefit, just naked dread and paranoia.

And relief. That's the important thing.

"I'm sorry," Daniel can say it aloud, whispered and horrified. "God, I - I'm gonna try and get you out, I promise, I, I don't even know how I - god, I'm so sorry."

He has to fight to keep it at a whisper, but even if his voice breaks by the second apology the volume never peaks. There is no way to transcribe all of it into words, even a linguist can recognize the limitations of human speech, and there wouldn't be enough time regardless. Going on like this in a futile attempt to console him verbally won't help, so he falls silent and reaches out with a discreet hand to grasp at one of Seth's, masking the motion as he shifts his weight from his heels to the balls of his feet. He just - needs for Seth to have tactility that isn't forced power transferals or blunt force trauma or whatever else he's been subjected to here.
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[personal profile] peacefulexplorer 2014-10-19 03:20 am (UTC)(link)
Daniel nods fractionally, understanding. They have no time for extended discussion here but that doesn't mean they don't have a plan. As much as two sentences, one of which was a single word, can be defined as a "plan," anyhow. But it's something, and they can work with that.

The strength of Seth's grip just works to further augment Daniel's resolve. He returns the smile, pained and fleeting, and briefly increases the pressure of his fingers around Seth's hand.

"I'll get you out," he hisses, ironclad conviction punched into each syllable, the final word closed off with the satisfying snap of teeth as he rises, pulls roughly out of Seth's grasp to move away, all the while keeping his back to the camera.

"I'm sure there's something we can do," he says icily, clearly, acting for the camera, "to get your full cooperation. Without any of this."

He bites his lip briefly - he probably overplayed that - but hastily rearranges his expression into something more detached.

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