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Can't Stand the Distance, Can't Dream Alone [open to all]

The sleeping rifties might have a difficult time realizing they're dreaming this evening, in part because tonight's dreams are atypically vivid, even compared to the rift's usual efforts. Perhaps that is because it's drawing so heavily from the memories of the dreamers, themselves, and using that information to recreate their home worlds in stunning detail. And that is the real reason the dreamers might not be eager to accept the unreality of the situation: the situation is one that many of them have been hoping for for months or even years. In their dreams tonight, the rifties are going home.

Perhaps they arrive in the same moment that they left. Perhaps months have passed at home, or they might even find themselves arriving before their departure point. But those are small details when compared to the overwhelming realization that they're back where they belong.

They're not alone. Many dreamers will find the rift has given them a companion for the return trip. Well, an uncomplicated return home is probably more than anyone could have hoped for, anyway. And for the unwitting visitor, perhaps another universal displacement will be easier to bear with the addition of a local guide.

[ooc: usual dream party rules apply; all are welcome, and dreamers can remember or forget the events of the dream at the players' discretion. Also at the players' discretion: when their character arrives in their 'home universe,' and how many (if any) locals they'd want to run into.]

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The room reminds Lucifer of the roadside motels that the Winchester brothers used to sleep at and would serve as the backdrop for Sam's dreams. He wonders where Sam is right now, if he's still sleeping in places like this with the lumpy mattresses and scratchy sheets; he wonders if he could find him again. Sam would not be likely to say yes to him again, but perhaps he could be reasoned with, now that there isn't a looming threat of the Apocalypse. He and Castiel had been allies, friends, once-- perhaps the promise of avenging him will be enough.

Lucifer walks in a little further, ducks his head into the attached bathroom; there is mold growing in the bathtub and in cracks in the tile, probably because the ventilation fan is broken. The sink leaks and the construction of the pipes ensures that there is never quite enough water pressure. He puts his hand against the wall as though looking for the light switch, pulls on his spark-small Grace, and fixes it while the room is still dark. He makes it clean and functional and tells himself that it's because he doesn't want to put his vessel someplace where it might get Legionnaire's disease.

The stress of using his already rundown Grace is exhausting, even for something as small as this; he sways slightly on the spot, catching himself on the doorframe with his shoulder.

Daniel's just dumped his empty coffee cup in the bin in the corner and has been searching the bedside draws for a paper and pen - he comes up instead with a battered Old Testament, as irony would have it - when he stands up just in time to see Nick leaning against the doorframe, looking a little punch-drunk. Maybe worse. Probably worse. Yeah, worse.

"Uh. Hey. So." He moves closer. "You okay there, buddy?"

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He waits for the dizziness to pass and the static to fade from his vision, then pushes himself back upright. He is aware that using his Grace for little frivolous things like this will only make his recovery longer, but...

But it is his Grace, and his to use as he wishes. He needs no other justification.

"I'm fine," he says, though he would not be surprised if Daniel doesn't believe him.

He turns and walks to the bed furthest from the door, and sits down on the edge of it. It's hard and will probably be uncomfortable to lay on, but it matters little to him. He takes the lid off of his coffee and it smells bitter and hot.

What is it that humans would say at a time like this? Something to put another at ease?

"I probably just need to eat something."

There. That's an adequate explanation.

"What are you looking for?"

Daniel's just as skeptical of this variation of 'I'm fine' as he was of the last, but it's spoken with the curtness of someone who doesn't wish to discuss it. Hopefully Nick's just tired and hungry which, well, Daniel can't blame him.

He drops onto the other bed, Old Testament still in hand. He glances at it with a soft "huh" of distant, halfhearted amusement before tossing it onto the pillow.

"Paper and pen. Like to, you know, write stuff down sometimes. Helps me relax." And gives him the impression that he's doing Important Work when he hasn't done anything of the kind in a while.

Lucifer cocks his head at Daniel, a curious birdlike gesture, and reaches into one of his large pockets. There are a few bills' worth of change from his purchases and some coins; metal and paper. He does not enjoy being in this human's debt, because indebted he is, but there are small ways that he can begin to close the gap.

It is easier and less draining for him to transmute other objects than to simply make things out of nothing. He wraps his hand around one of the dollar bills in his pocket, the one not facing Daniel, and pushes a little power; he does the same with a coin, and he has a small pad of paper and a pen when he's done. The act makes him dizzy again, puts spots in front of his eyes, but it quickly passes.

He pulls the objects from his pocket.

"Will this suffice?"

His eyebrows climb impressively high when Nick spontaneously produces paper and pen. Did he just have those with him?

"Um. Yeah. Those, uh. Those should be fine." His head goes to one side in an unconscious mimicry of Nick's earlier motion, the question mark hovering just out of range of the spoken words. "Thanks."

Nick looks a little unsteady again despite being seated now, and one side of Daniel's mouth twists down in an expression that just borders on admonishing. "You should probably eat."

There is no explanation that he can offer Daniel that will be acceptable for why he has a pen and paper on him, so he ignores the questioning look and goes back to his coffee. Daniel has commanded him to eat-- not that he has the right to demand anything of him, but Lucifer will allow the transgression to slide-- and instead takes a tentative sip of the drink. It's bitter and warm and tastes a little like it smells, and he can feel the heat go down through his chest.

It's... pleasant. He does not mind the taste or the feel of it. It should make no difference to him; he views all food items as interchangeable, immaterial so long as they provide his vessel with the fuel it needs, but he enjoys this.

He drinks a little more before he pulls the packet of almonds from his pocket and opens them; he eats mechanically, as though food is just another necessary thing, with all the gusto that other people did their taxes.

Unfortunately, Daniel misses Nick's coffee-related revelations as he accepts paper and pen and makes himself semi-horizontal, leaning against the rather unstable headboard as he scribbles busily at the little pad of paper. A myriad of words, mostly Latin and Latin-based with a side of some oddly geometric blocky writing, start to form a rough shape on paper, distorted in the way words are in dreams but not enough, apparently, to deter Daniel from his work.

He pauses to stick the heel of the pen in his mouth absentmindedly, glances up and notes with some satisfaction that Nick's decided to take his own advice.

"Feeling better?"

"I think I'll live," he replies, and now that his benefactor is apparently satisfied at his nutritional intake, he rolls up the bag and returns it to his pocket. New York is still a long way off, and there may be a time later when he is walking that he'll require the energy it provides. He must ration things carefully, so that he won't get stuck in some back woods with nothing, like he was when Daniel picked him up.

He takes another few sips of coffee, savoring the warmth-- heat is a luxury, now that he has the ability to appreciate it, all the more so because he's just had an extra four hundred years' worth of absolute-zero cold in Hell-- and then sets it down at his feet.

He looks at his vessel's feet and the dirty, worn-down shoes they are housed in. He has not removed them since he's been on Earth, but he understands that it is inappropriate to lay on furniture with them on. He unties them with some difficulty, as the mud and grime has nearly fused the laces together, and carefully loosens them. When he pulls them out, one at a time, there is a dry, crackling sound, like crunching leaves in autumn. It's from the fabric of his socks, crusted over with dried blood and fluid from the sores and blisters on his feet; he's worn down his extremities about as badly as his shoes, if the fact that his socks, once white, are now almost entirely rust-brown is anything to go by.

There's both pain and relief at having them free, and he experimentally wiggles his toes just to see how much it aches.

Daniel gets distracted from his lexical undertakings by the stunningly, singularly nauseating smell that abruptly fills the room. His head bobs up, nose wrinkling, and he performs a perfect double-take when it occurs to him that were those socks supposed to be white.

It's a good thing Daniel hasn't eaten recently.

"Ah." He swallows thickly and tries not to gag and thinks of the most polite way to phrase this. "Um. You, uh, might wanna think about showering."

Daniel is making earnest effort to breathe through his mouth but the overpowering stench sweeps over him again regardless. The man has been walking miles upon miles without stopping. Obviously there will be wear and tear. Very odorous wear and tear.

"Just, you know. A thought." No offense.

He looks over at Daniel, then down again at his own vessel. He had been able to keep Nick clean before by virtue of his Grace; he doesn't really know what actually goes in to the process of human hygiene. He knows, theoretically, how it works, that the addition of water and soap and person somehow comes out as cleanliness on the other side of the equal sign, but isn't quite sure of the specifics of how one gets there. Presumably there is scrubbing involved.

Humans did it literally every day, though. How hard could it possibly be?

"Yes," he says. "I'll do that."

He stands, ignores the utter hatred that his feet are sending him from being forced to bear his weight again, and goes into the bathroom. He closes the door, because he thinks there's something with modern humans about nudity and not being naked in front of strangers, so removing his clothes in Daniel's view may not be socially acceptable. It's probably better to be safe than accidentally make an unfortunate social insinuation.

Lucifer removes his clothing once he is out of eyeshot, folding each article before setting it on the counter. He looks at himself in the mirror for the first time and, at that point, perhaps understands why Daniel stopped in the first place. He is dirty, his face dust-smeared and his hair looking brown rather than blond, streaky where sweat has taken some of the grime off. His beard is hitting a fairly advanced stage of unruliness, long past the point where he should have started shaving it. There is a distinct difference in the skin tone of his face and hands and arms as compared to his torso, both from tanning and from simply the fact that his covered skin has less dirt on it. Nick had not been the thinnest man when he'd possessed him-- he is middle-aged and, though perhaps fairly decent-looking for forty, had carried a little weight around the middle-- and now had lost most of whatever spare fat he'd been carrying. Walking a few hundred miles is apparently an effective dieting plan.

There are small containers of soaps next to the sink, which he assumes are to be used for bathing. The bar is a shape he is familiar with, while the 'conditioner' and 'shampoo' are strange substances that he does not feel that he requires. Soap in hand, he turns to the shower itself.

There is a shower head at the top, which he understands is where water comes from. There is a dial and handle further down, which works in some manner that he is not particularly familiar with.

This could be more difficult than he expected.

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For a time Daniel's content to scrawl in his notebook in silence, but eventually it strikes him how that might be a little more silence than is typical for a shower. He glances at the bathroom door, concerned, but feels that calling to ask if everything's okay would be inappropriate somehow. Then again, there're definitely a few things off about Nick that leads Daniel to believe that he really has unintentionally picked up an offworlder.

Finally his willpower can't hold any longer. The apparent silence from the bathroom means that whatever Nick's doing in there, Daniel probably isn't interrupting anything important.

He knocks tentatively.

"Uh. You all right in there?" Okay, wait. He can't just call things like that into a bathroom. "Is the shower broken or something? Wouldn't be surprised, with the state of this place." Marginally better.

No, Daniel. Things are not all right in there. Lucifer is the Angel of the Deepest Pit, He Who Is Called Dragon, the Morningstar, Father of Lies, and he cannot figure out how to work a fucking shower. He's having a minor existential crisis over tugging on a weird device and having nothing happen and this is something that even children can use, how is this giving him a problem?

He is seriously considering using whatever is left of his Grace to burn this entire establishment to the ground in a desperate attempt to save his dignity. It would probably be doing the world a favor.

But if he does that, he might burn Daniel, as well, and that would be an unacceptable way to reward him.

He glances over his shoulder at the door, not that Daniel can see it.

"I'm... fine," he replies, probably less certainly than someone who's actually fine would.

That is the exact intonation of 'fine' that someone uses when things are not actually fine but they don't want to admit it.

All right.

Fine.

"Seriously," says Daniel, now pinching the bridge of his nose. "I can call maintenance. It's not a problem. Is the thing not working?"

That's because Lucifer is not fine and really doesn't want to admit it.

"I..."

He doesn't want more humans brought into this mess. And if there isn't anything actually wrong with it, someone will be there for no reason, and even Satan realizes that coming into a by-the-hour fleabag motel like this where two men are sharing a room, one of which is in Lucifer's state and the other of which is in Daniel's state, will raise eyebrows. Eyebrows will be raised and Lucifer doubts that, after all the ceaseless irritations of the past month, he will be able to restrain himself from setting the eyebrow-raisee on fire.

Daniel would probably not appreciate that, and that would probably draw even more attention to Lucifer. It is a situation that he should avoid, if at all possible.

"I don't know if it's broken."

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Oh for god's sake.

"Do you need me to check?" Daniel asks patiently. Bearing in mind that this guy could legitimately be from another planet, the confusion is understandable. And Daniel really, really thinks Nick should at least be able to take a shower. For everyone's sake.

"I would appreciate," he says, "just a little less patronizing, if you don't mind."

He reaches for one of the towels that's hanging from a rack and wraps it around his waist, securing it by tucking in one of the corners. Then, at least, if he opens the door, Daniel won't be scandalized by the sight of another man's genitalia, which apparently is something that people get scandalized over these days. Modern day is a strange, strange time.

"But yes, I do."

He shuts his eyes in an extended blink of self-directed frustration. Patronizing was what he'd been hoping to avoid tone-wise, but he must be more tired than he thought.

"It's no problem," he says, then the door opens and Daniel gets the full power of an unwashed man's aura.

That takes him a minute.

Daniel steels himself with another lengthy blink and a brief shake of his head, then once more unto the breach. He has killed gods and stared down incomprehensible omnipotent lightshow aliens. Surely he can enter this malodorous domain and fix the goddamn shower.

A few twists of the knob rewards him with the gratifying hiss of water, then some fiddling with the admittedly faulty dial adjusts the temperature to what Daniel assumes is the norm shower temperature. Flicking water off his fingertips, he rises and shrugs.

"I guess it's fine? Sometimes places like these are a little, you know." He jerks his head expressively. "You good?" Cause Daniel would really like to get out of the reeking hellhole of a bathroom.

Lucifer turns in an attempt at making room and at keeping his back out of Daniel's view, though the mirror on the wall behind him makes that essentially impossible; he doesn't want the man to take much interest in the two burns he has, running from shoulder blade to mid-back. They are shiny and red and fairly fresh, still mottled around the ugly yellows and greens of a healing bruise, from when his wings burned all the way down to the root.

"I think I can take it from here."

And even if he has trouble, he'll muddle through it. He has seen things washed before, it can't be that difficult in practice-- soap, washing cloth, apply directly to the ~~forehead~~ dirty areas.

This is your cue to exit stage left, not pursued by angel.

Edited 2014-12-08 05:28 (UTC)

The mirror being the treacherous object it is, Nick doesn't quite succeed in concealing said burns from Daniel. His hand freezes on the doorknob but he rapidly decides against bringing it up now. Whatever the story behind those horrific looking injuries, they're not going to want to have it in a seedy bathroom over a running shower while fifty percent of them are barely clothed.

"Right," says Daniel with a brisk nod, and shuts the door behind him.

He finds it considerably more difficult to focus on his half-legible Latin musings. Those injuries looked more than a little horrific, so of course they wouldn't come up in casual conversation. Daniel nibbles at the pen in distracted concern, batting his options around without much success.

Lucifer would really prefer that they come up in exactly zero conversations, whether held mostly naked or not, but he's probably not going to get lucky like that. Daniel seems to be a bit of a busybody, and, considering his stubbornly altruistic tendencies, will probably not be able to leave well enough alone. Not if he thinks that there's something he could do to help, anyway.

He tugs off the towel and tosses it aside before opening the shower curtain; there is steam starting to come out of the shower, heavy and humid. He steps in with wash cloth and soap, and the water that sluices over him is so unexpectedly blissful that he may have made a slightly less than dignified noise at the feeling of it. There was something visceral and immediate about being in his vessel with his Grace low, inches away from being human; less of a buffer between himself and the experiences of his body, perhaps. Whatever it is, Lucifer stands there for several long minutes reveling in it, eyes closed and head stuck underneath the spray. These few moments of animal bliss are the closest to Heaven that he's been in millennia.

Eventually, though, he has to pull his head back out, push his hair out of his face, and actually get to the point of this. The hot water will not last forever, which is a fucking shame, and he doesn't want to still be in there when it cuts out.

He takes the soap and the cloth and lathers it up, and starts working on scrubbing off the layers of road-dust.

The water goes cool before he's done anyway. He can't say he's surprised.

The Latin can wait, Daniel realizes the longer the shower apparently goes on. It's not like Nick's clothes were in much better condition than the man himself. Thankfully he looked around Daniel's height so it's the work of the minute to scour out jeans and a jacket and a t-shirt that look like they'll fit.

After a minute's hesitation, he leaves them in a neat folded stack just outside the bathroom before deciding that now's as good a time as any to fill up the car's tank properly. That was a 24-hour gas station, and he doesn't trust himself to be cognizant enough in the morning to remember to fill the thing then. Besides, Nick'll probably want space. Or something.

At the conclusion of his shower, Lucifer dries quickly and wraps the towel around his waist again; his clothes, he realizes as he looks at them laying sadly on the counter, are not fit for wearing. They really aren't fit for anything but burning, and even that's probably too good a fate for them. He had been filthy for long enough that he'd accepted it as a kind of default state of being, but the difference between being dirty and clean is prominent now that he's at the other end of the spectrum.

He has some reluctance, though, in getting rid of Nick's clothes. They are not his; they were his vessel's. Though now, he supposes, they're as much his as anyone's, since Nick has long since left the building.

He keeps the ring.

Opening the door, he looks for Daniel out in the room; it's empty and there is a set of clothes at his feet, which he presumes are for him. Daniel is barely shorter than his vessel and built similarly, and when he unfolds the clothes, they seem close to what he previously wore, size-wise. They fit well enough, when he puts them on. The old clothes are taken outside and thrown away.

By the time Daniel gets back from filling up the tank, Lucifer is sitting on the bed, legs crossed, the bedside table Bible open in his lap.

Daniel is relieved, upon returning, to find Nick both out of the shower and fully clothed. Much better. And also reading the copy of the Old Testament, but seeing as they're hard-pressed for reading material Daniel doesn't blame him.

"Better?" he asks, closing the door with a snap. He sits back down on his own bed, picks up his notebook, starts tilting it this way and that as he tries to decide what angle he was attempting to work from.

"They say cleanliness is next to Godliness," he replies, not looking up from his reading.

'You surely will not die," said the Shining One to the woman, 'for God knows that in the day you eat from the it your eyes will be opened, and you will be like God, knowing both Good and Evil.'

"What is it that you're working on? You seem intent."

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